I mentioned wanting to get more into creativity mode. It's coming out, but in different mediums than composing.
The piano taunt/haunts me.
Yes, I am intimidated by the instrument.
But eventually, it will pass. Eventually, I'm going to plug in the power, pull out the chair, and go to town on her.
In the meantime, to sort of even things out, I've been introduced to awesome musicians who I didn't even know were there this whole time, and reintroduced them to others who may be down to create, as well. So that's paying something forward, isn't it?
The key thing is not being myself into oblivion over everything. [edit: *beating. Woah, Freudian.]
(Which is pretty fucking hard, but we'll manage).
So for DJ stuff...let's do a brief review.
The Box, Santa Cruz, CA
Front Line Assembly – Psychosomatic
Crystal Castles – Courtship Dating
The Faint – Agenda Suicide (Adult. Mix)
Hocico – Ecos (Move Bastard Mix)
Suicide Commando – Bind, Torture, Kill
Terrorfakt – The Unknown
NIN – My Violent Heart (Remix)
The Cramps – Garbageman
Alien Sex Fiend – Ignore the Machine
Rudimentary Peni – Blissful Myth
Bauhaus – Dark Entries
Joy Division – Transmission
Front 242 – Headhunter
New Order – Blue Monday
Sexbeat – Sex Beat
Sisters of Mercy – Lucretia My Reflection
Siouxsie and the Banshees – Cities in Dust
Depeche Mode – Policy of Truth (Extended Mix)
KMFDM – Anarchy
Combichrist – This Is My Rifle
God Module – Rituals (iVardensphere Mix)
Terrorfakt – No Frequency (Imperative Reaction Mix)
Stromkern – Stand Up
Praga Khan – Breakfast in Vegas
VNV Nation – Structure
Angelspit – Sleep Now (Angelspit Mix)
Baauer – Harlem Shake
Danzig – Her Black Wings
Murder City Devils – Demon Brother
AFI – The Hanging Garden
Apoptygma Berzerk – Mourn
Bauhaus – Terror Couple Kill Colonel
Depeche Mode – Precious
Röyksopp – What Else Is There?
Wumpscut – Wreath of Barbs
Garbage – As Heaven is Wide [request]
Thrill Kill Kult – After the Flesh
Alien Sex Fiend – Now I’m Feeling Zombified
Christian Death – Spiritual Cramp
Siouxsie and the Banshees – Love in a Void
Talking Heads – Psycho Killer
Q Lazzarus – Goodbye Horses
Echo and the Bunnymen – The Killing Moon
Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds – Do You Love Me?
New Order – True Faith
Nitzer Ebb – Join in the Chant (Burn!)
Spellbound - Siouxsie and the Banshees
Bela Lugosi's Dead - Bauhaus
Ignore the Machine - Alien Sex Fiend
Headhunter - Front 242
Bizarre Love Triangle - New Order
Here Comes the Rain Again - Eurythmics
Blasphemous Rumours - Depeche Mode
The Faint - Agenda Suicide
KMFDM - Megalomaniac
Goldfrapp - Strict Machine
There ya have it.
Maybe it'll take a pilgrimage to see my dad to help purify the creative waters. Maybe it'll be some big epiphany--the classic 'Eureka!' moment. Finding something that was there all along, but needed to be brought to life.
(Also: fuck yeah, I bought tickets right after they went on sale at 10:00 in the morning the day-of presale. Dedication. What.)
For now, you should hang out with me and DJ Necromos (who is a person, just like us) at Club Apparition's 4th Year Anniversary in San Jose tomorrow night! It will be grand. There may be a pinata...made to look like a certain goth rocker with tousled hair and smudgey lipstick.
I'll also be doing a guest set for the super-hip-slick-cool cats at the Black Cat Lounge in downtown Santa Cruz, at 515 Kitchen and Cocktails, in two weeks on 03/16. What to expect? The stuff I was raised on! Old school 60s garage rock/psychedelia, SURF ROCK!!, some somber girl groups, glam rock, old school/classic punk fucking rock, O.G. goth rock, deathrock, new sleazy grooves...ALL THE GOOD STUFF!
Like a grave.
It'll be fun.
In the meantime...I rest.
- Emelyn Bats