Well.
I have been going through some shit, guys.
We all have, I suppose.
But yes, that's what's massively delayed updating this thing.
I would just like to publicly apologize to anyone who's felt I've been icy or rude to them, this past month or so. I have been needing to keep to myself and meditate on a lot of aforementioned shit, but all around I'm evening out.
I also don't really use this thing as a soapbox. That being said, it was National Coming Out Day, recently. I didn't really share my story.
Look. It's like this:
As a lesbian, my pool is small.
As a goth/punk-ish lesbian, my pool gets even smaller.
And as a (quite frankly) awesome goth/punk-ish lesbian, my pool gets
EXPONENTIALLY smaller.
So, let's just say, it can get rough, and very lonely at times.
And
when I officiated things with myself and decided to inform the rest of
the world who I really am, I accepted that it would be very lonely and
hard. It already had been, leading up to that point, anyway.
But I had to answer what's right for me.
And I have put up with some shit from numerous sources.
I have had to deal with insecure friendships.
I have had to deal with sexual guilt, frustration and humiliation.
I have had to numb my strongest sense of being to not get beaten down by that in of itself.
But I have also grown into a very strong, resilient young woman.
And
in doing that, I have experienced at least one amazing woman who makes
something shoot through my body that makes me feel beautiful, and worthy
of a warmth my body and soul craves. It makes up for the
bullshit--which is an Everest, at this point.
And that's how I know.
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Also I used to have pretend romantic dinners with an imaginary girl at the age of six.
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So, thanks.
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White Room
Samhain – Archangel
The Exploited – Sex and Violence
The Cramps – What’s Inside a Girl
Murder City Devils – Ready For More
The Misfits – American Nightmare
Bauhaus – Party of the First Part
Siouxsie and the Banshees – Face to Face
Rasputina – Sign of the Zodiac
Smashing Pumpkins – The Beginning is the End is the Beginning
The Cure – Burn
Vice Device – Breahtless
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White Room
Love and Rockets – So Alive
Bauhaus – Ziggy Stardust
David Bowie – Scary Monsters (And Super Creeps)
The Cure – Fascination Street
The Smiths – How Soon is Now?
Virgin Prunes – Pagan Lovesong
The Cramps – Sunglasses After Dark
Dead Kennedys – Moon Over Marin
Siouxsie and the Banshees – Cities in Dust
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Portishead – Wandering Stars
Austra – Beat and the Pulse
Garbage – #1 Crush
Thrill Kill Kult – The Days of Swine and Roses
Joy Division – Shadowplay
Siouxsie and the Banshees – Spellbound
Fields of the Nephilim – Preacher Man
Depeche Mode – Blasphemous Rumours
Bauhaus – Stigmata Martyr
Alien Sex Fiend – I Walk the Line
Billy Idol – White Wedding
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Depeche Mode – Personal Jesus
The Smiths – Panic
Tones on Tail – Go!
Siouxsie and the Banshees – Kiss Them For Me
Pet Shop Boys – Opportunities (Let’s Make Lots of Money)
Nitzer Ebb – Getting Closer
Prince – Controversy (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
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Happy Birthday, Mr. Nick Fucking Cave
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The Birthday Party – Release the Bats!
Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds – The Mercy Seat
Danzig – Am I Demon
Black Flag – Rise Above
The Misfits – London Dungeon
Murder City Devils – Demon Brother
Sonic Youth – Bull in the Heather
The Smiths – Some Girls Are Bigger Than Others
The Cure – Fascination Street
Portishead – Wandering Stars
Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds ft. Kylie Minogue – Where the Wild Roses Grow
Siouxsie and the Banshees – Face to Face
Eurythmics – Here Comes the Rain Again
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Fields of the Nephilim – Preacher Man
The Birthday Party – Mr. Clarinet
Einstürzende Neubauten – Feurio!
The Birthday Party – Zoo Music Girl [request]
The Cramps – Human Fly
Nina Hagen – Born in Xixax
David Bowie – Scary Monsters (And Super Creeps)
Christian Death – Romeo’s Distress
Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds – Red Right Hand
Depeche Mode – Policy of Truth
Bauhaus – Bela Lugosi’s Dead
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The Cure – Fascination Street
Depeche Mode – Precious
Skinny Puppy – Assimilate
White Zombie – More Human Than Human
Thrill Kill Kult – The Days of Swine and Roses
Bauhaus – She’s in Parties
Siouxsie and the Banshees – Spellbound
The Smiths – London
Garbage – #1 Crush
Alien Sex Fiend – Ignore the Machine
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The Cramps – Human Fly
Siouxsie and the Banshees – Halloween
Joy Division – Love Will Tear Us Apart
Tones On Tail – Go!
Depeche Mode – Enjoy the Silence
The Faint – Agenda Suicide [request]
New Order – Temptation
Nina Hagen – Born in Xixax
The Cure – Killing an Arab
Love and Rockets – So Alive
Ministry – Every Day is Halloween
KMFDM – Juke-Joint Jezebel (Metropolis Mix)
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The Smiths – How Soon is Now?
Nitzer Ebb – Join in the Chant (Burn!) [request]
New Monday – Blue Monday
A Flock of Seagulls – I Ran (So Far Away)
Siouxsie and the Banshees – Cities in Dust
Depeche Mode – Personal Jesus
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And, well, as for Ninja Lounge, the latest night I've been doing at The Blue Lounge...
Those set lists are more than a bit backlogged, so I'll just go ahead and post one of the more recent sets and you'll get the gist of what we're going for.
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The Fugees/Salaam Remi - Fu-Gee-La instrumental
Bonobo - Nothing Owned
DJ Shadow - Midnight in a Perfect World
DJ Krush - Kemuri
Joe Goddard ft. Mara Carlyle - She Burns
Jon Hopkins - Breathe This Air
Bj
örk - All is Full of Love
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öyksopp - What Else is There?
Amon Tobin - El Wraith
DJ Krush - Lunation
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Bonobo - Dinosaurs
Mexican Rave - Flavornaughts
MF DOOM - Curls
Cool Calm Pete - Get With the Times
The Herbaliser - Shattered Soul
Amon Tobin - The Sighting
The Herbaliser - Who's the Realest
DJ Shadow - Organ Donor (Extended Overhaul)
Rob D. - Clubbed to Death
Trent Reznor/Atticus Ross - In Motion
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The Herbaliser - A Mother (For Your Mind)
Bonobo - The Sicillian
Gorillaz - Dirty Harry
Method Man - N 2 gether Now (Instrumental)
Bonobo - The Shark
The Herbaliser - Shocker Zulu
NIN - Only
Zombie Nation - Souls at Zero (Sven Väth Remix)
The Faint - Total Job (Photek Mix)
Bonobo ft. Andreya Triana - Eyesdown
Amon Tobin (Cujo) - Cat People
The Herbaliser ft. Roots Manuva - Starlight
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Bonobo - Something Longer For Windy
Blatta and Inesha - We Don't Know
The Faint - Cars Pass in Cold Blood
Disclosure - F For You
SBTRKT ft. Little Dragon - Wildfire
The Herbaliser - Put It on Tape
DJ Shadow - Building Steam With a Grain of Salt
Bonobo - Pick Up
The Herbaliser - Goldrush
Amon Tobin - Four Ton Mantis
Trent Reznor/Atticus Ross - A Familiar Taste
Praga Khan - Breakfast in Vegas
DNA/Suzanne Vega - Tom's Diner
Gorillaz - Kids with Guns
Amon Tobin - Proper Hoodridge
The Herbaliser - Another Mother
MF DOOM - A Dead Mouse
Amon Tobin - Nova
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Indeed.
Come by Ninja Lounge every Wednesday night, shoot some pool, and kick back with spies, ninjas, and femme fatales. We'll be screening more ninja/spy-themed movies in the weeks to come, as well as few other tricks up our sleeves.
And come by
The Box every Sunday to get spooky, especially during this most magical of months. We'll be celebrating our 14th Anniversary on the 27th. Get your finest costumes or ensembles assembled.
Must prepare for later.
Also
The Walking Dead season premiere, amirite?
Will update more. Somehow.
- Emelyn Bats
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